Behind Elle's Mind
These pictures show my “then”, and my now. Then for me was a really bad place, a scary living nightmare and a place that I never thought I’d get out of. Then, I was empty, lost, angry, confused, anxious, unstable and scarily, suicidal. I didn’t know my own mind, or what it was making me think or feel. Then, was the worst time of my life. Then, I was admitted to hospital to start therapy for Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression and Anxiety.
It took me a while to get to that “then” point. I’d been getting progressively worse over the year and I didn’t tell anyone. I wanted to be strong, not weak, I wanted to cope, not fail, I faked happy, I didn’t want to burden people. It ended up taking over my life, it ended up at “then” and looking back now, my biggest regret is not asking for help.
Talking about your worries, your thoughts, your fears and feelings to anyone, helps. It’s doesn’t have to be a therapist, it can be anyone, a problem shared truly is a problem halved.
I believe the bad times in life put us on the very best path of our life, with experience comes learning. I am grateful for who I am, and proud of who I’m becoming.
Always be kind, you never know what is hidden behind a smile.